I'm Back! (Amber Talks About WHY She Went on A Hiatus)

I'm Back!

You guys, it has been a few weeks since I left the blogging word with a short twitter message and a lot going on in my life. It was a hasty decision in my part, and at the moment I wasn't proud that I had to do it. But now coming back I am glad I did. Here is the message: 

After a lot of thinking I decided I am going to take a hiatus from blogging. My mental health is my #1 priority and right now I'm struggling

— The Book Bratz (@thebookbratz) September 27, 2015

With that end some other things. I'll be back in a few weeks. Until then Jessica will keep a hold on things. I love blogging and

— The Book Bratz (@thebookbratz) September 27, 2015

I don't want it to be something I do now because I have too (that's how I've felt latley) and I want to be in the right

— The Book Bratz (@thebookbratz) September 27, 2015

Mental state when I do blog. Which right now I am not. I love you all and I'll see you soon! Xx, Amber

— The Book Bratz (@thebookbratz) September 27, 2015

Mental Health: I've talked about my mental health struggles on twitter before to a few followers. At the end of August I felt myself slipping back into a dark hole. For a few weeks I was alright, I was just tired and lost interest in some things. Then school, college apps, and work started and I couldn't handle it. I was snapping at the smallest things, crying for no reason and I felt like everyone was against me. I am also working as a cashier at a grocery store, and that was a whole new stress with in its self. When people don't know you they can say very rude things with out it bothering them. I was at a point in my life that I just didn't care anymore. I been a work in progress the past few weeks, I been getting myself help all along since I was younger. So it was a change in medications and learning new ways to deal with it. I'm still not 100% but I am feeling better then I was. 

Blogging was becoming a competition to me: I am ashamed to admit this part. I LOVE blogging. I love the people. I love the books. I love it all. But it was becoming a big competition to me. I would get upset when I saw another blogger with a galley I requested and didn't get. A little competition is okay, but it was starting to become a little unhealthy about how mad and disappointed I would get when things didn't work in my favor. I've done one BIG reality check during my hiatus. I don't blog for the books, I blog because I LOVE talking about books and promoting them. It really isn't a big deal if I don't get them. 

I just want to send huge hugs and kisses to everyone who helped and supported me during my hiatus. You are all beyond awesome! *Huge hugs* And thank you to Jessica for not killing our baby while I was gone.